okay, i went for ballet yesterday as usual and after class, we were chatting leisurely about stuff and all of a sudden, someone said " eh, i heard my christian friend in school saying that in the bible, it's said that if the earth gets too hot (global warming) or there are nuclear bombs (and something else. cant really remember) that means the world is ending and jesus is coming. and we are experiencing global warming in a way, and there are nuclear bombs in the other parts of the world. so does that mean that the world is really ending? " i stoned. i wasnt expecting that. and i never knew the bible said all that. according to some of my other friends, all that was written in the book of revelations. and im not sure where it is. or whether it really is written in the book. but all i know is that if that is true, judgement day is real near i presume. i guess it never was very faraway. but i just never did expect it to be THIS, NEAR. so i dont know. i guess i needed people to listen. people who really understands whatever im saying and to tell me something relavent. and if, judgement day is really coming like REALLY, are we prepared to face God. to be before him and be blameless? how've we been living our lives these past few weeks? with jesus as top priority? or with him found beneath all our homework, school, cca and other commitments? and yeah. i feel that between the former and latter. im with the latter. and im just afraid. i dont know what to say to jesus these days. im so ashamed i cant bear to face him even in prayers. i feel like such a hypocrite going for worships and sermons. it's like what a particular pastor said. im a one-minute christian. i dont know why. but each night before i sleep i just cant find the energy to talk to God. i feel tired after a long day. a long day WITHOUT HIM IN MY LIFE. and i feel tired and like im living a pointless life. so i try and try to keep him first in everything i do. but after awhile, i give up cause i get so tired waiting for answers. and sometimes, i need his answers really urgently and it's just so hard to keep the faith and that's when i lose it. and i simply slide down all the way. and yeah. i dont know how many of you guys actually feel the same way as i do but yeah.
okay, im digressing. but the main part of this post was supposed to be the judgement day part and whether it is really said in the book of revelations that when we experience global warming and nuclear bombs it means that the world is coming to an end. yep. so that's about it. i guess this is a really, dampen-the-mood post but i just needed to get it out of my chest.okay, im outta here. (: take care you guys!
-shenna-