hey guys! This is in response to nic's post. Just wanted to say that nic, YOU'RE NOT ALONE IN THE WORLD!!! We're all here for you. and just to let you know i completely know how you feel cause i sort of experienced it this year as well but it's my best friend.
she and i arent really as close anymore cause she like sort of did some stuff that really hurt me and she didnt apologise and stuff.... she used me for a lot of stuff and like used my name and lied (a lot) esp to me and her parents for those who were there for my birthday last year, she lied to her parents abt that too and even now as i try to patch things up right, she goes all defensive as says that it's not her fault and stuff and blames it all on her parents all this stuff that she did made me cry(at home) way more than i've ever cried before... (nic, don't feel bad)
yea, so until now it's all pretty rough and doesnt seem to be getting better so yea. just wanted to share that cause it's been bottled up for really long
so nic, dont feel sad cause we're all here for you!!!
-nat-
told the world! :D @ 7:18 PM
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a candle in the desert storm?
hey guys! really never blog for very long. but im here today to ask and consult you guys about a big problem i have. Friends that doesnt care. i have this grp of friends. we were quite okay, last year. but things got worse this year. it all started when i decieded to "pangseh" them for service learning. we all plan to go china, but then when the list came out, i dont feel like going anymore, so i opted for local. and they got angry. things kinda got "solved" but i can feel that they arent really happy about things, and when i ask them, they say things are alright. (can feel that they're lying)
and my grp of friends arent really holy. most claim to be christians, but actions shows otherwise. they insult teachers behind their backs, call them names, plot plans to "get back" on the teacher. at first it was kind of fun, but then as time goes, it wasnt that fun anymore. i know its wrong. and sometimes they are just hating the teacher for no reason. just for the fun of it.
and knowing that they are this kind of ppl, it scares me. cause now i try to not be so close to them, and join another grp. im afraid that they will like insult and scold me and stuff behind my back. and they always like scold and gossip about people until super -what!- one!
and then, my studies the best among them. then they will always ask me problems and stuffs. so i always try my best to teach them. but they dont seem to reciprocate it. they always end the converstion with a "thanks nicholas, you are so kind" but who knows if it is real?
and then when i need help. no one cares. no one returns an sms, no one bothers to ask if i need help and stuff. so one day. (its kinda embarassing) i kinda cried... and it was in class. ok i know! its bad! and the term sarah would use is "gay". but i couldnt take it anymore. the best part is.. THEY DIDNT EVEN ASK WHY I CRY! what in the world la! and then one of othem said, "if nicholas is angry with me, i dont know whats his problem."
what can i say?
then i smsed yasmine a few days later. and she said i should help them even if they dont care. the problem now is, it is so difficult. its like putting a candle in the desert storm and expecting it to continue burning. it should wouldnt burn on what. i read the Lent Booklet today. it says " Lenten journey is one of repentance, that is, changing directions from self, self-serving patterns and a myopic focus towards the others-focused way of life of following Jesus. We follow Jesus in laying down ourselves for others and trust that the power of that raised Jesus from the dead...." how to do that?
now each time i think of going to school, this grp of friends appear in my head and it really kills the interest of schooling.
any suggestions?
Nicholas
told the world! :D @ 1:31 PM
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